“What kept me sane was knowing that things would change, and it was a question of keeping myself together until they did.” Nina Simone
Happy 2020! I had a super fun night in LA last night. Charis, Miley, and I got ready and headed to a party in the Valley to welcome in the New Year. 2019 was by far the best year of my life. I lived the entire year in my dream city (San Diego), met incredible people, and accomplished more than I thought possible. 2019 was the year that I finally broke free of patterning in life and relationships that were keeping me shackled. While 2019 was the year that I set myself free, it wasn’t something that simply occurred within 365 days. It’s been a process and it will continue to be a process. I like to view reality in terms of spectrums rather than set points. I typically don’t place much emphasis on the significance of year marks, yet for some reason this one felt different.
I arrived in LA to Miley’s apartment yesterday morning. As we ran some errands and talked, something in my heart was pulling in regards to the significance of 2019 ending. I couldn’t figure out why. Charis arrived, we all got ready. The ambience was happy yet I couldn’t figure out what was tugging at my heart strings. After all, it was a night like all other nights. We got to the party, had a great time, and around 4:30 AM made our way back to DTLA from the Valley. When we got back to Miley’s apartment, I sat down on the couch and it finally dawned on me. These past ten years were gifted to me. In November of 2009, I attempted death by suicide and failed (Read more about it here). Because of that failure, I was gifted with an additional decade. As soon as I acknowledged the memory, my heart felt at peace. These past 10 years have been life-changing. Here’s to hoping I’m gifted with at least 10 extra years!
As for new years resolutions? I don’t believe in setting those. Whenever I want something or don’t like something in my life, I take action to attain/change it as soon as possible. I don’t rely on a the rotation of the Earth around the sun to dictate how I live and don’t live my life. Hope you all had a great holiday season. My holidays are personally not over until January 7th as in Puerto Rico we celebrate Three Kings Day on January 6th.
Lastly, since I talked about the rotation of the Earth, time, and year marks, I’ll share a quote I came across when I first awakened this morning via Jason Silva’s instagram that absolutely blew my mind:
“The speed of light is very, very special. It’s not just simply a speed of something moving through space. As you go faster and faster and closer to the speed of light, time itself begins to slow down. And space begins to contract…The entire universe becomes smaller and smaller until it basically just becomes a single point. Time, gets slower and slower until basically time is a single point at the speed of light. Light does not experience space or time.” Michelle Thaller (NASA Astronomer)
Science is so poetic, isn’t it? Back to my Denver posts tomorrow!